I’m so tired of pressure!: I tell ya what. I...

I tell ya what. I am so freaking tired of feeling pressured by people whether it’s intentional or not! I swear the moment I reach a point where I feel like I can relax, someone is pressuring me about something!

Recently the pressure has been about college. Why don’t people understand that I don’t have to follow the same plan as them?! I have a plan of my own! I have four months until I have to apply so why should I push myself to the breaking point right now! Like I have this friend who’s extremely serious about school and is unsatisfied with B’s. I love her for this quality but she is terrible about making me feel bad when I don’t think how she does. A B in my book is great. To her it’s a failure. As you can imagine she’s obsessed with getting into college right now. She’s literally been planning her admissions stuff since June and she’s planning on applying THIS WEEKEND!! We literally have months left! I mean I can understand like a month before or even two months but four freaking months??

But me being the insecure person I am, I started having panicking right then and there. I haven’t even asked for my recommendation letters yet! I haven’t even been on college tours yet! My parents aren’t worried so I didn’t think I needed to be! But this kind of thing happens often. She’s super super punctual and a huge goody. For example let’s say we’re given a writing prompt that we both don’t agree with. Whereas I might challenge it and turn it in the day before, she’s going to follow it to the dot and it will be done the day after it’s assigned. Like i said, I love her for this but good lord woman!

And I hate when people talk about all these plans they have set and there’s me with just an idea in my head. No set in stone plans. I mean I don’t want to spend my senior year worrying about the future too much. I don’t want to be overly stressed! My anxiety is already through the roof just thinking about a big university so I don’t need these added pressures!

All I want is for people to respect the fact that we are all going to do things differently! And people really need to chill out, I’m talking to you my studious friend!