Bad memories.

[alekst2104]

Hi guys. The other day, my boyfriend came back from work and ended up cutting his arm (due to the fact the he cleans machines in a bakery, not on purpose). After he had a shower the cuts were a lot more visible and it brought back memories... I was in a goodish mood and the minute I saw the cuts my mood went straight from happiness to upset. I kept zoning out, the only thing that was on my mind was the cuts and that I used to do it before and my arm started hurts... to make it worse, I had a nightmare where I cut again... since then my mood has been varying but it's been varying on sadder scale... I just needed to share this...

[JAYnLA]

Triggers are a pain, and this one must be a biggie for you. What I'm being taught to do is to lean in to the old feelings rather than try to run from them. They need to get out. I think that's what you're doing by posting here - nice work!

[clayjars]

I'm glad you found this place to share your thoughts. I'm sorry that your past memories are haunting you. Please remember that you are no longer living in the past. You are grown up, you are bigger, older, stronger,... When we were a child, we thought like a child and talked like a child and reacted to situations as a child... we couldn't address the problem, so we ran away and blamed ourselves, we hurt ourselves, etc. But now, we are adults. We can stand up for ourselves now. We can address what is wrong and we can correct it. We can identify what is wrong outside of us...those who hurt us, who have done us wrong. We don't have to keep running away, keep blaming ourselves and keep punishing ourselves. Remember that you are strong now. You can stand up to those who have wronged you and hurt you in the past. You have the power to forgive them now, so that you can release those memories in your past and begin to live in the today turning a new chapter in your life.

[alekst2104 in reply to clayjars]

Wow... that really spoke to me... Thank you so much