Anxiety

[sisterneedshelp24]

I have been suffering from this type of anxiety for so long that it's really affecting my career life. I all started when once i had a teaching job where i got fired and was treated badly.Everytime i remember what happened i'd break apart.

The second job i had wasn't any better. They fired me on the next day without even a notice. I can't forget how horrible i felt when i left work to go with my boyfriend and just having to tell him that i got fired. It was just so horrible and hard to explain because i didn't understand the reason neither.

Right now i'm working as a cashier. And this insecurity is screwing me up big time. I have been working there for 3 weeks and so far i haven't made a mistake. However, today I thought i made a huge mistake by taking extra money from a customer, and i told my boss and he told everyone that we have to compensate the customer when they come back... Until someone pointed out that i didn't actually do any mistake. They were all weirded out and probably thought that i'm an idiot for admiting a mistake i didn't do!

I am so beyond tired of this loop. The fear of losing this job is making me go crazy.

It's making me worried and anxious about everything and pushing me to imagine things that aren't real.

I'm thankful that tomorrow is my day off but how will i face everyone on monday? What if they fired me? And how can i stop being insecure all the time and get rid of this fear of getting fired?

[a_work_in_progress]

I can’t see how they can fire you you haven’t done anything wrong , as a matter of fact I think it Showed your Strength by admitting that you made a mistake even though you didn’t. Look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself you are smart and you are strong. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Try to be at peace with yourself. Don’t let anxiety win.

[sisterneedshelp24 in reply to a_work_in_progress]

But i'm so worried about tomorrow when i get back to work what they will think of me and how will they treat me. I just can't accept that i could be confused about something like this! Why think i made a mistake? And I argued with them confirming that i did do a mistake and it turns out i was wrong. I made a huge fuss over nothing how can i go on like this?