To make a long story short for years I have had this fear of unavoidable death, I hate growing up. I feel like I will be diagnosed with a disease like cancer (hearing the word or saying it gives me fear) or I have a tumor on my brain. I have always had huge fears which cause me not to enjoy things and hide away. Etc. besides this constant fear I deal with I try to mask it and live a normal life. For a year or so now when I drive I have been seeing a super light grey heat wave swirling in the center of my vision.. I’ve been to an ophthalmologist twice and my eyes are completely healthy. I have this huge fear there’s a tumor in my brain causing these episodes because I know now it’s not eye related. But I NEVER see this swirling heatwave extremely light gray thing in my central vision while inside. It only occurs when I am driving and or outside in the sun (more common when I drive or if in a car in general) I find it really hard to ignore. Has anyone else had this ????? Or have this ?? My ophthalmologist just labeled it under ocular / visual migraines. I just feel that’s not the case. I feel something is wrong with me.
I just feel like I’m dying ...):