Hello everyone it’s been a while since I’ve been on here. I have seriously been struggling lately I’m dreading going to see my GP as they will most likely put me back on tablets. Everyday, every minute is such a struggle. I think I have managed to just cope with the depression. I think it’s just been accepted as being part of me. What I can’t seem to deal with is the anxiety, the constant fear, worry & the feeling of being out of control. I have a very responsible job which is extremely stressful. Work never ends, I bring my work home which I sometimes need to. This is only so I can catch up with my work. There’s plenty of overtime going which other colleagues happily accept. I live a a reasonable distance away from work therefore I can’t really afford to stay back to do overtime because I will get stuck in loads of traffic on the way home.
The constant worry about everything & not being sure if I have met the expectations of my colleagues & the people I serve. Anxiety has changed the way my memory works I find it really difficult near impossible to sometimes remember stuff and day to day incidents & scenarios mix into one then trying to remember what relates to what drives me crazy.
Anxiety has effected every part of me from my eyes, to headaches (flashy lights) really scary. Hair, aches, appetite, stomach issues.
I would very much like to share experiences with people who suffer from a similar experience in particularly in relation to very severe anxiety, talking definitely helps. However one worries leads to another where I doubt & double check everything in case I have missed something or not acted on something.
Wishing everyone the very best!. Merry Christmas. Best wishes always.