Going backwards!

[Wyominganxiety]

Hi everybody! Its been a long time since i have been on here.. life has been crazy wonderful! I have a great job now as a care taker, and have been look iving a pretty stress free life, but here latley i have been feeling off.. i had issues with my insurance not filling my citalopram so i have been off of it for about 3 weeks.. i have noticed my happy personality is fading once again.. i feel exhausted in this fog of emotions.. i have constant thoughts mostly bad.. canr sleep well which being a mother and a caregiver is not a good thing. I feel myself thinking like i used to worried about my relationship, tjinking im losing everything ugh.. guess my concern is in restarting the medication.. will i have all those brutal side effects again?! Just want the worry to stop

[kenster1]

hi ive been off my medication for nearly two weeks lowered dose for two weeks previous really never slept till last night thank god.im also a care giver to a relative and its been hard to keep going.i got kids as well.im actually starting to think better without my medication life seems more clear now but its early days.i know how you feel have you been back to the doctor yet maybe try get some melatonin.

[Wyominganxiety in reply to kenster1]

My insurance is finally going to fill my meds. My doctor wants me back on them asap, im scared of going through the horrible side effects once again.. but i was full blown agoraphobic before so i guess few days of feeling aweful is better than going back where i used to be..

[kenster1 in reply to Wyominganxiety]

yeah its the side effects that's always a worry.my mum was agoraphobic I know how you feel.

[Wyominganxiety in reply to kenster1]

Still havent convinced myself to start again... but the uneasy thoughts are sneaking back again...

[kenster1 in reply to Wyominganxiety]

im due to start mediation again Saturday on mirtazapine after weeks away been on zopiclone for a couple just for sleeping don't really want to go down that road again but I might have to my head is everywhere but on my shoulders and its not been nice.

[Wyominganxiety in reply to kenster1]

I hear ya there! Thought i was doing good but the self hate and wondering thoughts are getting crazy again