Guys..I’m trying, I really am. I am STILL suffering through this whole idea that I have pancreatic cancer. I thought maybe after the CT if I gave It time, I would feel better but I just don’t. I feel awful. I feel like the stomach pains are becoming more frequent.
Yesterday I wasn’t googling as much but today I have been. “Pancreatic cancer can be missed on a CT.” “Pancreatic cancer wont show up in blood work all the time.” “25 year old diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.”
I’m fighting this internal battle with myself and it’s driving me absolutely crazy. It’s affecting my job and my relationships. I keep asking myself, what if this time I’m right. What if this time I do have this. I need to get checked by another dr, I need to push for more testing.
I can’t eat, I have no appetite, I’m exhausted, I feel weak. I feel this pending doom over me.
I feel like a broken record, like an annoyance. I don’t wanna feel that way on top of everything else.