Scared

[Erinkatja]

I’m sitting here in my car at work on my lunch and I can’t even do it anymore. I feel like I’m going to die everyday I get an attack I feel like my heart is going to stop and I’m going to stop breathing. Why does it feel so terrible all the time. I know people have been struggling from this for a lot longer than I have but I don’t know how long I can take it. It’s ruining my life. I can’t do anything. It happens when I’m home when I’m working if I do something if I don’t do something. It brings me to tears everyday! I try everything breathing getting up and moving staying hydrated. I can barely walk to my car without feeling out of breath anymore. I don’t want to give up but I feel like I’m at that point. I’m scared everyday of these attacks where I can’t breathe and feel like I’m going to faint and sharp pains in my back with getting so dizzy I spin. Someone please help me

[RainneLim]

Hi,

You got this. Just hold on to what you got and keep going. If you feel like you got nothing, you got yourself. You keep pushing forward for yourself.

I understand what you feel like. This was me this yesterday evening, night, this morning and lunch. And it has been happening for 3 months so not long either, but the length of our anxiety doesn't matter. The fact that it is happening is what matters, and I want you to know you are not alone. I sometimes am so afraid of getting another one that I do end up getting another anxiety attack. So freaking dumb!

I do not know what gets me through the day. As they say, honesty is the best policy. I am equally holding on to whatever I can to keep moving forward, to feel like I am living. I am afraid for no reason. Yesterday, I was enjoying my day. I was at a event in the city, and as I was walking back to my car, depression hit. I didn't care about anything; I didn't want to do anything. Then later that night, anxiety hit. I was worried about everything. And I cried so much. Then this morning it happened again and this time, I was very close to fainting because I was breathing so fast that the oxygen running to my brain was making me dizzy.

You are not alone. I don't know if it gets better. I really hope it does. We just have to push forward, find our way, and keep moving. I really don't know how. But just one hour after and hour, one day after another day. Explore what you love and I hope that can help you move to a life with less anxiety in you life.

[Erinkatja in reply to RainneLim]

I really appreciate you sharing that with me. I feel like I can’t be normal it happening to me multiple times a day sometimes all day I feel like it’s a struggle to catch my breath . I cry and cry until no more tears come out from fear of my heart stopping or that I’m going to stop breathing. You’re right taking it a little bit at a time is a good idea. It’s still hard when knowing right around the corner could be a hidden attack. I try to not get caught up in it but it’s like a black hole. I’m glad to see you’re still optimistic through your attacks. Is there anything that helps you the most to overcome it?

[RainneLim in reply to Erinkatja]

There are three things I do:

1. I pray...kinda. I am a Seven Day Adventist, which most people think we are strict but I feel like there is a new generation of us out there that are more liberal in a Christian aspect. When I am crying hysterical, I talk to God. As if he is right beside me. Every time I do, I actually, idk how, feel the weight in my heart and mind to lighten up. I am not here to lead anyone to my faith. I believe people have their own right to the religion they want to follow, and this is mine. If you (and anyone reading this post) don't believe, I totally respect it and accept it. Definitely not going to judge.

2. I try to rewire my brain. This is hard. I am basically talking to myself but really I am talking to the me who has the the depressive and anxiety symptoms. I say to myself "You stop this now! You are not worthless. And no one can predict the future. Take it one step at a time! You will get better because you want to get better! Stop doubting. Stop putting yourself down. Stop that now!"

Basically, I focus all my emotions to one - anger. And I direct that towards my depression or anxiety. Not me, but the symptoms. It's really hard to explain, but I am trying to separate myself from my disorder. Mental disorder isn't who we are. It doesn't define us, but just just one part of us, and I am trying to separate it from me. It helps me get angry at my disorder while pushing out all negative emotions. After, I don't necessarily feel optimistic and cheery, but I do feel better and am no longer depress. This is a weird one I try.

3. I go outside, somewhere public, and space out. This is my calming technique. I try to go to the beach once or twice a week now. And I just sit there, and people watch. Or watch the waves. Basically just chill. Sometimes I read for a few minutes and then go back to spacing out. Two days ago, I was really depress. I really didn't want to go out, but I told myself (using technique 2) to just shut the hell up and go to the damn beach or near the lake. When I got there, I just sat there, looked at the waves. I brought my speakers and blasted music loud enough to be not bother some people. I don't know how to describe the feeling but I just feel calm. I am not happy. I am not sad. I just feel calm.

I hope this helps. Don't hesitate to ask me more about one or two of the techniques I use to help myself out. I hope you can use it, but adjust it to your needs. I am always here to talk to.

[tishy713]

I honestly don’t know what to say to help you but please know you are not alone. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for what feels like a century it doesn’t matter the time all that matters is your fighting a constant war please know I’m

Here for you if you wanna talk at any time message me and I’m here to talk keep fighting the good fight Philippians 4:13 ❤️ I am here to listen to you

[Erinkatja in reply to tishy713]

What do you do when you get hit with anxiety and depression what helps you get through it?

[Hidden]

Hey Erin! Are you currently seeking help for you symptoms. The mental stuff you will have to work on maybe with help, but meds will help the physical stuff if you can't take the attacks anymore. Just make sure your doctor explains the side effects and you understand them. But they can help you if you are at this point

[Erinkatja in reply to Hidden]

Yeah I finally called some therapist/psychologists to try to meet with someone. It will take a few weeks to get an appointment but it’s better than nothing at this point!