Well I’m 35 years old..had my first child 11 months ago..4 months after she was born I started having intrusive thoughts and heavy brain fog and anxiety..like out of the blue...I mean I was the parent who checked on my child constantly before but now I was afraid and panicked when my fiancé had to go out of town for work..
So I go to the doctor to see what the hell is wrong with me..I’m put on Zoloft and told I have a anxiety/panic disorder but we also do blood work on thyroid which came back negative..I had horrible side effects from Zoloft..heightened anxiety/panic, bad vivid dreams, very intrusive thoughts..so after 6 weeks I got off..(and I was in therapy) and anxiety actually stopped but it was thoughts and dreams I couldn’t take..
Round 2..4 months later I’m in a constant brain fog..so I go to different doctor still not convinced I have anxiety disorder...welp..he says I do too..brain fog, tired, neck sweats, etc. so he puts me on Prozac..which makes my heart race a million miles an hour, then heartburn or acid reflux to the point it feels like something stuck in throat and dry mouth..so we switch to lexapro..which the day I switched huge anxiety and just general not feeling good..but I wait it out..next day depressed..(I never feel depressed) then soooo damn tired I cannot basically move from chair and basic child caring things until my doctor says stop taking it(like a week later..)
I start therapy again because everyone is telling me it’s unusual to have bad reactions to 3 very commonly used anti anxiety meds..granted I hate taking medication..it does make me think it’s gonna make me crazy..or that the root of the problem is health related and not just anxiety ..so then I google until I just pretty much am a hypochondriac and become terrified I have something major and no one sees it..
I’ve lived a pretty care free life until having my baby girl (whom I love more than life)
But has anyone else had a similar experience? Or am I just neurotic ? My fiancé is so patient with me making him stay in town some weeks or drive me to therapy or everything ..I just want to feel normal again..I just don’t understand where it’s coming from..