I'm in college only taking online courses because my anxiety is too high to be in a classroom. I was doing great, but staying home all day has made me lose all motivation. I've become depressed because my grades are dropping severely yet I can't bring myself to do any work. I know what I need to do is get out of the house.
There's a barnes and noble with a starbucks near my house that I want to go to tomorrow but I'm so nervous.
First of all, I don't have any friends that are in school right now who would have any reason to join me so I'll be alone. I never go places alone, I get breathless and shaky and feel like EVERYONE is watching me.
Also what if someone tries to talk to me while I'm working? It's happened to me at the library before (which is why I'm deciding to try Starbucks instead) and it was horribly uncomfortable being hit on while I'm anxious and also trying to get work done.
Also is it okay to study there even though it's not a library or a designated workplace?? I've seen a few people do it before but do employees get annoyed? Should I order something to drink so I'm not just taking up their space. Agh I'm very nervous but NEED to do this.
Any advice is very appreciated. I know I'm worrying for no reason but I'm still so anxious about it.