I’ve been off work for a couple of weeks now as my anxiety attacks returned with a vengeance.
I had some CBT sessions back in 2016 to help my PTSD after a traumatic event in 2013. It took me a while to seek help- but when I did I was convinced I had dealt with my issues and was able to carry on with life. Fast forward to 2018 and my anxiety has come back with a bang. I haven’t been able to go to work.. I have quite a long drive to and from work every day and it feels like it’s pointless. It’s pointless when I get to work and stare at the screen as I just don’t feel valued- I don’t feel like anything I get done is appreciated and I just want to curl up at home.
I work in a team of predominantly women- all very different but all very powerful, intelligent characters but if I’m honest I feel totally lost in it all now. I don’t feel like I click with any of them (except for one but to be honest she has her own things to work through and I can’t face being a burden on her).
My manager wants me back in next Monday.. I’ve gotten off the phone to her and immediately my heart is racing and I’ve got the wave sensation coming over me. I just don’t think I ever want to go back there.
Has anyone got any advice for how I can get life back on track?
I haven’t really got anyone I can confide in so would really appreciate anyone’s advice.. thanks in advance