I don't think I'm going to make it out.

[Pwayman22]

Long story short. I'm a senior in college. Doing my internship. My major project proposal is due tonight I thought it was due on Thursday. I didn't have my internship supervisor sign this document for my major project proposal. The paper is worth 100 points its going to be late because of the signature I'm going to get 30 points taken off. I have never wanted to actually drown myself so bad ever in my life. I have never wanted to stop breathing so bad in my life. I want to kill myself and literally feel every bit of pain. I want to light myself on fire. I want to stab myself. I want to scratch myself so hard and go in the hot shower so I can feel the burning all over my body. I want a car to hit me. I want to smash the window of my car take the glass and drawl failure on my forehead. I have a lighter in my room and I swear its just calling my name. I just want to go outside take the lighter and light my pants and let the fire travel.

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Cant the supervisor sign it today before you turn it in

[Pwayman22 in reply to Hidden]

She left at 2pm her child is sick. So I’m gonna fail I’m gonna drown and fail

[Kim00712]

As an old lady I can tell you this: nothing is worth your life, because your life is worth something. Just stop and breathe. You messed up the dates. 30 points off for a signature sucks, but you’re not going to fail. Kick this things ass and hold your head up high on the good work you’ve done.

[Pwayman22 in reply to Kim00712]

Mrs. Kim I officially put myself into a depression coma and at this point I’m under the covers and I don’t believe I will be returning to civilization anytime soon. My teacher told me to my face that I’m an embarrassment to the school. And I’m representing my university horribly. I’m done in my head.

[Indigojoe in reply to Pwayman22]

Pwaymann, life is hard, it's not fair, and we trudge through. We learn from our mistakes and we don't do this again, because we HATE these exact feelings you have now described. You chose to put yourself into a depression coma instead of solving the problem or finishing the paper and getting the 70 points. How about you make another choice now??

Get up and get back in the game, get out of your head, and back to work.

Parental advice 106

[Indigojoe]

Call the instructor and ask for the signature.

[Pwayman22 in reply to Indigojoe]

Okay so she did respond to my email and forwarded her signature. But still don’t understand why I’m an embarrassment. I hate this school.

[Pwayman22 in reply to Pwayman22]

When I was younger I could handle people being disappointed in me. But now that I’m older it hits me very hard. Do you think I need medication?

[Indigojoe in reply to Pwayman22]

I think you need to stick to one project at a time. The older you get the less you care what people think about you. What people think about you is their business, not yours.

I think your drama about the signature was a nice try to get out of doing your paper. Get the paper done and get the 100, and you will be fine by the end of the week.

Good luck, go back to work and finish what you started.