I feel I need to start therapy session as I can't deal with the whole anxiety I have 24/7. I worry about the slightest thing. Worst is my health, I'm convinced I'm seriously ill and will die. Slight small pain or breathlessness and I think I'm gonna die. I'm scared to go outside as I think what If something happens. I have really bad social anxiety too, always need someone to go anywhere with me or I won't do it myself and get panicked when i need to answer a phone which I usually avoid anyway. I have to ask for reassurance constantly too about almost everything.
I can't sleep at night either no matter how tired I am I just can't sleep and all I do is think about how much my life sucks. I only fall asleep as i see light outside my window in the morning.
I also get really angry all the time, i feel like the slightest thing makes me angry. And sometimes when it gets really bad I just want to hurt whoever I'm angry at but instead i leave to my room and just punch my bed or something hard until I hurt my knuckles.
I honesty feel like I need to admit myself into a mental hospital so I can get away from everyone and everything and maybe get help.