Help and clarification needed...

[Illboy]

Ok I must say that I have made my anxiety much much less. Now I can feel a great difference , but one thing bothers me . Suicide . No I'm not suicidal , infact I never have the thoughts of leaving the world , never had but sometimes my mind goes , what if I kill myself? What if in future I do ...... This makes me so scared sometimes. To add fuel to my fear , a person in our neighbour hood committed suicide and no one ever thought of it . I mean to ask what is this? I'm quite happy only sometimes negative , then what is this? Anyway happy 2018

[Claire51]

Hello , it is not uncommon to have fleeting thoughts of Suicide, and that is in the main what they are even people without Anxiety have this too. As you say your anxiety is much less now with the work you have put in on helping yourself, try not to focus on the bad stuff it is very sad someone in your neighbourhood decided to take this route, but you will never know what their issues were, what problems they were having. Stay positive try not too worry about these thoughts as it is not uncommon esp when what has happened recently has started you thinking more. Focus more on keeping your mind in here and now and staying in a good place . Good Luck x

[Illboy in reply to Claire51]

Thank you for your time