One of my biggest triggers I have found is my mother . She causes my anxiety. I hate to say this but I can only be around her for maybe a hour tops. She is a narcissist and very manipulative. Being around her or going to visit her I get sick sometimes before I go. I feel guilty for feeling this way. She does things for me but only so she can get a return on her investment and have some form of control. I am so tired of this pattern. I want to break this cycle and I want to move on with my life. I want to distance myself from my parents and meet people and create healthy relationships with people. I no longer want to be around those toxic relationships. I made a appointment to began therapy again. I want to work on these issues I have to become a better mother. I don’t want to be a toxic parent.