So I've recently been diagnosed with PTSD related Anxiety resulting from a bad crash I had. A car smashed into my bike travelling at 60mph, luckily I was able to walk away with minor injuries.
I am now getting panic attacks before venturing out the house or seeing someone etc.
Why is this happening, I literally like I said in my other post was emotionless and now little things are making me anxious. I have had so many more traumatic things happen in my life, just a TRIGGER WARNING here as the mention of suicide may cause triggers for some people. Unfortunately in my line of work I have been involved with 5 suicides (don't want to discuss the technicalities of my role but I had to stay with the body) and this effected me but as harsh as it sounds, after a day I was fine. I know I said this before but it just confuses me why I am reacting so badly to this.
If I was unfortunately enough to be involved with another suicide in my current state I would literally be crippled with anxiety.
Has anyone else experienced this with anxiety, it gradually progressing?
TheInjuredBiker, I hear you....I had to be strong in the medical field I choose. Never knowing what we would be responding to, life or death situations. You build this wall around you, you care but you don't let it affect you. Then one day, all those emotionalist feelings come crashing down. After all, we are human. Our psyche can take only so much. With anxiety, it looks for our defenses to be down and then takes over. You are not alone in feeling like this. There is many a good person who was taken down by PTSD, Anxiety & Depression. Hang in there, this is your time to take care of you.
Thank you Agora1
You have my upmost respect. In my job I work around a lot of paramedics, ambulance crews etc and the work you guys do is amazing!
I guess you're right it is probably time to start taking care of myself. I always put it off if that makes sense, especially sleep wise. In my old job I used to do 19 hour shifts 5-6 days a week and my mentality then was, a couple cans of red bull will make it all fine. Now I work normal hours, still shift work but normal hours but that mentality has stayed with me.