Hi everyone I'm new to this my name is Brooke and I'm 15 years old and have lately been having weird feelings. I have been having these bad feelings about myself not like I'm ugly or anything just in general bad feelings. I have also began to think everyone secretly hates me and have begun to be a lot nicer to people as I feel I don't want to be alone and don't want anyone to dislike me. The main problem is that I feel like people are talking about me a lot which has made me miss 6 months of school because it gives me a mad feeling about thinking about all the people judging me. I also have began to not be able to go to jobs/doctors etc myself as I feel embarrassed and feel like people are looking at me. The bad feeling I have I only have sometimes tho and it makes me not be able to eat,talk or do anything but want to be alone and sit in silence. Aswell as this I have also been feeling quite sad lately because of feeling I have no one and nobody likes me when infact that is not true as I do have a lot of family+friends but I can't help feeling this way. I also feel I have no one to talk to and to lean on when I'm sad because I feel like I'm going to be judged. i used to feel like this but it went away and has came back 1000 times worse and i can't deal with it anymore. Also when I know I have to be somewhere like school or a group activity I will feel very nervous and worry about it a lot the following night.this also gets me very stressed but I haven't told anyone what I have been going through but it has been very hard. Also when I have to go somewhere MYSELF my mind plays through bad situations that I doubt would happen to make me feel embarrassed. Does anyone have any ideas of what this may be or why I'm feeling like this ?
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It sounds like you have generalized anxiety and social anxiety. You need to talk to someone. It’s very nice here. We can chat with you but how do you miss so much school without telling your parents? As a mom I would hate to think my child was hurting and I could not help them. You are not alone! A lot of us feel that very same way. I always feel like people are judging me or looking at me in anger and so I try to be very nice to the point of becoming annoying. It can be a viscous cycle. I took a sociology class in college and one of my assignments involved just going to the mall or somewhere and just watching people. It was very interesting! One thing I noticed was that very few people noticed me. They are busy, thinking about things they need etc, talking with people who are with them etc. So then I got a job for fun in a small store. I wait on people and 99% of the time I don’t recognize them the next day if they come in. It’s crazy but we live in a society of people on hamster wheels. Unless you stand out for them they don’t pay attention to you. So chances are that person you think is judging you is most likely thinking about what to have for lunch and doesn’t realize you exist. I think a lot of yours is age with a bit amplified anxiety. Everyone wants to be liked. Especially in high school. I played sports. Some people join groups with other like minded people. Drama, science, chess etc. I think when you are with like minded people doing things you enjoy you will feel more comfortable. You could start by talking to your school guidance counselor. They won’t judge you and their job is to help you! Maybe starting with someone apart from your family would be more comfortable. They can also help you talk to your family and get you the help you need to be more comfortable.
Hey Brooke, welcome!!
This sounds similar to social anxiety.
Have you spoken to your parents or thought about going to your GP? This can be the most scary part but the sooner you combat what you’re feeling with professional help the better.
I think 15 is too young for you to deal with this alone so you should definitely speak to somebody you feel comfortable speaking to to help you get some more advice.
I hope everything works out
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When you go to the doctor sweetie ask to speak to him alone if necessary but please tell him everything! It’s important that he knows what’s going on so he can help you. I just have to again recommend that you talk to your parents. You are just so young to be going through so much all alone. If nothing else keep a journal and let her read it if you’re nervous to talk. Then she can process and try understand. I understand what you’re going through all to well and as a mom I know how Imuch it would hurt seeing my child go through something so hard and not being able to help.
Hi Brooke
Well glad you found this place, you can always ask for advice or just vent if you need too. I would definitely try and talk to your mom and explain the best you can what your are feeling even though it may be hard, she will be the one to help you and guide you to see a doctor/ counselor. I saw a counselor for years and it really helped me deal with my feelings and I was able to learn coping skills to deal with different situations. Good luck, I know you can get through this.