Learning

[Hopefortoday]

For many years I have been anxious by my thoughts. I grew up around addiction and fear dominated my thinking in attempts to feel safe. I suffered losses in terms of tragedies and deaths including my dad, sister and brother. But before the end of their struggle with addiction I recognize my starting point of this thinking, I was young maybe 8 and I would worry about my siblings safety, brace myself for the fights and then I began to find solace in my own achievements via school and work. Fast forward to today and I have been on a rollercoaster with jobs and this feels unsafe financially speaking and I react the same way. Obsess, worry and then I get anxiety symptoms. The beauty is that I know this now, I don't freak out when I have a lightheaded spell anymore I look back at my stress level before it happens and see I can trigger myself. Before looking this deeply I focused on not fearing the symptoms now I can see my part and do what and "think" the way I need to to manage. I am won't be "cured" overnight but I can heal little by slow.

[Agora1]

Hi Hopefortoday. it may take us all a different length of time in learning what needs to be done in order to dispel anxiety and it's symptoms, but eventually we all get there.

You are absolutely correct in not freaking out when a symptom should appear. Looking back and seeing what may have caused it, gives you the answer you need to continue going forward. It is our duty in managing our anxiety after all we hold the key. xx