Existential rumination

[shrs3]

I cant stop now for 3 days i habent been able to stop questioning my existence and the world around me. I've always had this to some degree but i could distract myself. Now i cant turn it off and its 24/7 which is putting me in a panic 24/7. I can tell my friends and family think in crazy. They keep asking "why are you having those thoughts"? Like you think i know.

[kevoreally]

We live in the matrix the matrix is real your not crazy you just took the red pill..

Your havig anxiety 24/7 aka derealization it sucks and its terrible have you seeker medical attention?

[shrs3 in reply to kevoreally]

Yea ive been trying but I've been not able to leave my house. Which makes getting help very difficult

[kevoreally in reply to shrs3]

Agoraphobia, depersonalization/derealization, thats what you have i would seek out a therapist and see if they can go to you also the way i counter it is SO WHAT if this world isnt real what i know is im breathing and bleeding when i get injured so if that isnt real idk what is and I could careless

What if we arr in the sims? Oh well we still make our own choices and they all have consequences we still have the ability to hurt or love others

The worse thing is that in this unknown real or fake world we have no superpowers /: but trust me buddy this world is as real as real gets!

Its also very screwed up world too!

Your not imagining anything your not thinking up people or creating them with your mind the best way to prove this world is real is by realIzing that everything functions with or with out your permision

Im giving you advice not because your telling me or your mind is creating me and the advice

Im all the way over in new york long island and your in your house where ever the place is how real is that? How awesome is it knowing people from all over in this world are communicating with you?

That just proves this life and world are real

Best of luck neo one day at a time!

[shrs3 in reply to kevoreally]

Thank you for your words! Im just trying to keep a positive mind set here its already improved since the last few days so im just working super hard on recovery

[Delzek]

She's we are all on this Earth for a reason even if we don't know what the reason is. " Ours is not to reason Why, It's to ask how high" everyone has these thoughts at one time or another.

If we try pyschoanalysing ourselves we would go crazy. When I get like that I try to think of the good I have done in life the people I have inadvertently helped through troubled times ! Then think what would have happened if I had not been there at the time? I then realise why I am here! I hope you understand what I mean take care.

Thankyou Derek

[shrs3 in reply to Delzek]

Thank you i will try doing that! Im just trying to keep a positive mindset

[Wyominganxiety]

I have agoraphobia mine is busy public places crowds waiting in lines.. it's an aweful feeling and has stopped me from doing alot...

[kevoreally in reply to Wyominganxiety]

I have it as well but only when driving to unknown areas out of my town -_- very dibilitating

[shrs3 in reply to kevoreally]

Yea it used to be just that and now its gotten worse. I mean i know its gotten this bad before in the past i just want it to be done with

[Delzek in reply to shrs3]

It will eventually I have been told that when I become happy with myself then my confidence will return and I wiĺl be more like I used to be.I am a bit unsure about that tbh I don't know if it's what I want because I have a form of amnesia I am told it's my subconscious protecting me from an event in my past my brother and sister keep telling me it cant be anything i have done as i have always been to nice?

I don't believe them when they say don't know what happened to me

[shrs3 in reply to Delzek]

So have you had those thoughts as well? What do you mean about the amnesia,

[Delzek]

I had a breakdown and was really badly injured put in an induced coma when I woke up my memory was gone I have even after the time that has passed still not got my memory fully back.I don't want to say anymore just now hope you don't mind I am not being rude it's just a bit difficult. Sorry Derek

[shrs3 in reply to Delzek]

No, you're totally fine i completely understand! I hope you feel better😊😊

[Delzek]

I feel a lot better in myself tbh since I moved from the Midlands to the seaside even if I don't go out