Okay, as a person whose had a very debilitating history with anxiety/ panic attacks, I'm pretty good at spotting people having the silent torture. Yesterday I was spending time with my dad, and I noticed right away that he was anxious by the way he tapped his steering wheel at the red light. I asked him if he was anxious, and he said that he gets that way sometimes when he drinks three cups of coffee. I then went into the issue more; I asked for a full list of how he was feeling and he told me, just jittery, feels like he needs to be completed with different projects, spacey, buzzy, and his lips and tongue were tingling. I asked him if that scared him, and he looks at me confused and replies, "no, of course not" he then goes on and says that anyone would feel this way if they had 3 cups of coffee (I drink 6-8 cups a day now) and that he's felt like that many times throughout his life. He then inputs, "not as bad as what you've experienced", to which I replied, "That's exactly what I experienced". I could tell he was taken back.
I found it very interesting that my dad -who is the most laid back person ever- was experiencing these exact symptoms that would have previously convinced me to think I was dying, yet he was completely unafraid and even scoffed at the idea of being such.
These feeling we feel are very natural when someone is under the influence of stress, be it external, internal, or via stimulants such as coffee. Yet, we've all (here) have had that one moment where we felt totally out of control and it changed our paradigm of these completely non-life threatening symptoms into our greatest fear. One of the reasons I don't suffer panic attacks anymore, by the grace of God, is that I have changed the way I look at these symptoms. I still have a lot of the symptoms, but I'm completely at ease in them. I was unable to drink one cup of coffee a few months ago, without being thrown into a horrible 4-6 hour panic-attack, yet now, I drink a very unhealthy amount of it (6-8 cups/day of strong coffee).
This is just my mid-term study-break revelation that I wanted to share with the rest of you. What you're going through is very real and will always be the response to stress, but you can control your paradigm and what you give your energy to, and how you interpret stressful situations. It's not overnight, but you'll get there. Read some of my old posts.. Read or listen to Stephen Covey's, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, and you can skip to the "circle of influence" section and see how this all ties in. The more you control what you can control, the more you can control.