Well I haven't been on for a while, not cos my anxiety and depression has subsided,cos I have been going thru hell lately with it, been very depressed about anxiety coming back worse then ever. I've been thinking that I'm 36 now and not married or have any kids,with no prospect of it ever changing. It gets so very lonely 😭.
I have been using heroin to numb the pain,doesn't seem to take it away. I have lost all hope things will get better.
My dear jennifer234, I had hope that things had turned around for you. You seemed so positive 2 months ago about going forward. The problem is when it's coming from the medication talking and not our inner spirit. I'm sorry you have turned to heroin. That's a heavy price to pay in trying to numb your pain. Drugs/Meds are just bandages unless you address the inner jennifer234, the problem remains.
Life isn't credited by being married or having children. One can be just as lonely being in a relationship if you aren't happy with yourself. You need to continue working on you Jennifer. You are still young. None of us ever know what life has in store for us. But right now it's got to be about pulling yourself together, not using drugs or other people to take you to shore. You can swim by yourself. You have the strength to do it but you need determination that you will go on.
I'm glad you reached out to the forum. There are many lonely people in this world. We are what we think. Please make a call in getting help for your drug use as well as professional help for finding yourself. That will keep you afloat. We all support each other as we struggle with life issues. You are never alone with this forum. We care. xxx
Heroin is not known to help people with anxiety disorder and the secondary depression about being anxious. It is known to aggravate mental health problems abd cause other mental and physical problems of which you must be aware. But you must choose.
You have more than half of your life left and have the freedom to make a success of it which not everybody in the world has. I think it's about time you addressed the question of your recovery and take responsibility for your recovery, for make no mistake you can recover. So maybe start with reading a good self-help book that explains how the nervous system works and how we get into this unhappy state called anxiety and what's happening to you and what you can do to overcome it and enjoy the rest of your life such as Claire Weekes' first book 'Self help for your nerves' available from Amazon for a few quid, isn't that worth a few quid, much cheaper and more beneficial than heroin, but that's for you to decide.
So sorry you are going through this I am 39 never married no kids been engaged twice sometimes I think while I'm almost 40 never had a family never been married but then I look around and honestly I think we're better off
All my life my mum has told me to find someone and have children and you will find happiness and meaning in life. Well I have neither and seems like I never will. You are lucky to b engaged twice at least someone has loved you enough to ask u. I have never ever had anyone tell me they love me in that way. I hate being alone, I don't want to die alone and no one cares if I'm dead or alive. It's driving me to terrible places in my head.
Hi jennifer234, just checking in on you to let you know I care, we care on this forum. You know Jennifer, words mold and shape who we are and it seems like your mother may have molded you into believing that happiness lies in finding someone and having children. There is more to life than that. Each one of us has a responsibility to ourselves first before we can give to others and not the other way around.
You need to start turning around your negative way of thinking. Starting with changing " I hope to "I know" and "I can't" to "I can". Just a minor change in words can change your way of how you think about yourself. When you are confident, it draws people to you like a magnet. We are what we think is very true.
Instead of focusing on what you don't have, put your focus on what you do. Start reading books on the power of women regarding self esteem and confidence. It will mold you into a new person. And know one thing Jennifer, it does make a difference to us that you are alive and a part of this family called a forum. xxx
You know what Jennifer even people who have all that still suffer from anxiety and depression. You need to find peace and happiness within yourself, love yourself everything else is just a bonus.
And nothing is impossible you will get there! Wishing you the best 😘
No need for heroin, things will get better for you, maybe it's not time for you to have a child yet, who knows it may happen very soon stay strong you can call me if you like
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