I still struggle.

Like I said in my last post, this isn't easy. The fear still comes sometimes I feel like I'm going psychotic but I don't hallucinate nor do I have delusions. Sometimes I feel like having delusions about some kind of force being around me but I know it's not real. I know it's just a thought and that thought turns into a feeling. I won't back down because I'm in control!

[Tempestteapot]

You're doing great hanging in there! These feelings can be terrifying of losing control, but you're already winning as you know they are just feelings brought on by intrusive thoughts so you've always got the upper hand. Keep on keeping on, and know that we're all here for you!