Hello everyone, this is my first post and the reason I'm writing is the reason I joined.
I suffer from extreme pmdd (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) and have started taking the pill to try and help but sadly it's obviously not working. I just went absolutely mad at my 3 year old...it's just me and her and normally I have the patience of a saint but when I'm due on I find my fuse to be a fraction of the length it normally is. As any 3 year old is, she is very testing, pushing boundaries and acting like a normal toddler...normally it's ok and I can handle it but today I have gone mad at her twice...really screaming at her. I've never hurt her...but the screaming is awful and must be so confusing for her as most of the time I am so chilled...I know people will say I should give myself a break and that I'm suffering from an illness but she doesn't understand that and I don't have anyone to take over when I'm feeling like this. It just makes me feel like a failure, a freak, a bad mama & a horrible person. This sends my anxiety spiralling out of control and I end up becoming really withdrawn. Today I was meant to meet 2 friends with their daughters but felt my daughter was being so difficult they would see how much of a failure I am so I didn't go.
The rest of the month I feel I am acing this single-mamahood stuff but the week leading up to period it's like I am a different person.
Can anyone relate to this?
I'm just so tired of it...