I'm new to this site and I probably won't be around very long since I know it's not good for me to be on sites like these with my anxiety. Anyway, over the past couple of weeks my anxiety has flared for no reason whatsoever. It's hard for me to leave the house now without feeling like I'm going to be sick, and even when I'm hope I'm anxious. I get anxious about being anxious and it's never ending. My doctor recently put me on stronger medications, and even though it's only been a week, I feel as if they are helping a small bit. My only issue now is that I'm so extremely tired and some disassociation. My sleeping schedule is completely messed up, I sleep for 8 hours and then go back to sleep not even an hour later and sleep for another 4. As for the disassociation, I really don't know how to describe it. It's like, I have pressure in my head and it feels extremely heavy, I feel like I'm on a boat with some mild rocking feeling, and my body feels like it's not my own; it feels super strange to move my arms and legs, and it's weird to hear myself talk. I don't know if it's a side effect of my medication (Cymbolta) or it's the anxiety. I have super bad health anxiety and have made the mistake of putting my symptoms into Google, which tells me it's either heart failure or a brain tumour. I've been afraid of having a brain tumour since I was around 9 years old. I'm adopted and I don't know the medical history of my birth parents, but in my adoptive family I had a 3rd cousin that had a brain tumour and it's been a fear ever since learning about that. 9 year olds shouldn't be fearing that. I hope someone here can relate to what I've said, as it's my last resort to find people that actually know what I'm talking about. I'm going to be 19 in about 2 weeks and I'm not sure if I'm anxious about that or what. It's taking over my life. As pitiful as it may sound, I'm really desperate to find someone that can relate to me.