I've been struggling for a long time now with anxiety, with just about it being manageable & fighting through it, but really do feel like I don't see how to get through this, I feel run down, like I've got a virus, bouts of feeling severely Ill, chest pains other random pains around my body, & most worrying recently facial numbness/tingling on my left side mainly face/head. Been advised to take propanalol , though not that I see what can be worse than this I am reluctant to become dependant on this again after coming off it a few years ago.
I come on sites like this for reassurance more than anything though after a while everything seems to add fuel to the fire. I have a little boy with another on the way, who I love more than anything, what scares me most is not being there for them & i just want to enjoy every minute with them, take them out, have family holidays, as most days its hard to find enthusiasm to get out the house most of the time, & have practically no social life, just about managing to go to work.
People probably have no idea of what is going on in my head/body & apart from my partner & close family I would never try make them aware, & my personality wouldn't suggest what goes on.
Tbh just for someone in a similar situation to talk to would be great, as it's difficult for my partner to understand how I feel, & with her pregnancy try not tell her to the full extent how I feel.