Health Anxiety

[Smalls7725]

My story begins in October of 2014. My Wife lost vision in her right eye, leading to multiple tests and a three day stay in the hospital with no apparent answers. A week later through another hospital they gave the only answers they could come up with "Cat Scratch Fever". Who would have guessed lol. I believe this stressful time sent me on a hunt for medical problems for myself. It started with rib pain on my right flank near my lower ribs. This wasn't debilitating pain but enough to know it's there. This lead to an ultrasound to check gallbladder and abdomen. Nothing was found. I've always had a terrible stomach ever since I was a kid. Next up was an upper and lower GI. They cut out two non cancerous pollups and said I had a lot of stomach acid. I also got tested for celiacs. I lived with the stomach and eventually the rib pain vanished. Next was a pocket of pressure on the right side of my temple which lead to a neurological exam and CT scan. Again nothing, the Dr. said it was headaches. These headaches still come and go. At my yearly exam and blood draw in 2016 I was found to have hypothyroidism. The beginning of 2017 back came the rib pain with full force again. Lead to another ultrasound. This ultrasound they thought they found a spot on my kidney, which lead to a CT scan of the abdomen. Thank God it came back clear. We had a big family vacation in April of 17. This would be my first time ever flying and I was scared to death. Needless to say this is when the chest pain started. I would and will have all day chest pains. Usually on my left side. This landed me in the ER twice with what I swore was a heart attack. I made it through the vacation even though an elephant rode on my chest the flight home. Once is was back home I thought for sure the anxiety and panic would let up, but it didn't. This lead to a trip to the cardiologist. I did a resting echo and a stress test with nothing found again. I've tried Zoloft and Paxil. Made it two weeks with Zoloft until I couldn't take the stomach pain. And only a day with Paxil. I'm now on Wellbutrin twice a day and have just passed the one week mark. I don't feel like my anxiety and panic have let up at all. I always feel light headed which makes me think I'm going to pass out. I've been reading Hope and Health for your nerves by Claire Weekes. I know this is anxiety and I've read the tools to try and coup. But I cannot seem to get a grip on this and push forward. If you've made it this far, thank you for reading my story. I hope that there is light at the end of the tunnel.