You know what gets me.

Ok rant approaching. I think the thing that annoys me most about my anxiety is the fact I've got to have reason. For everything. But when I get reason. I still worry. I get a lot of chest pain. Acid reflux confirmed by doctors. still Worry. Wake up with a horrible sore arm that really hurts to move. Slept funny. Still worry. Woke up With a really fast heartbeat, after drinking alcohol. Still worry. Had one of those Normal sort of skipped beats that 99% people have. Still worry. Get a sore nerve in my neck, confirmed by doctors. Still worry. Muscle ache all over from being tense. Still worry. Feel breathless In morning, after smoking l. Still worry. I get a blocked nose in winter caused by common cold. I'm dying. Still worry. Heart rate goes and I get it if breath walking up big hills. Because I'm massively out of shape. Still worry. I sit and I worry looking for something serious and sinister. I sti listening to my heartbeat. Sometimes it's beating normal, that it'll beat a little harder: and a little faster. Then that's is. Heart attack. I've been having this heart attack for 2 years now. It's the fear. But I cannot control it. It's like no matter what, it won't go. You could stand me in a room with 50 doctors telling me I'm fine and guess what. I'd still worry.

[Francop]

Shit i was going threw the the same stuff had to cut bavk on alcohol and cigartes anf i dont smone only when i drink i tend to abuse my alcohol so ther for my hangovers can feel like death ive had chest pains but i stoped Smoking and drinking try to eat healthy i was just line you felt line i couldnt do anything but put my hand in my chest and feek and count my heart beats ive felt like i was going to pass out try to cha ge your life style i did and my anxiety changed

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I think it's all anxiety over been to the doctors so many times. In fact I know it's anxiety. I'm sat now thinking I'm gonna have a heart attack because I work this morning and my left arm is aching really bad. I sleep on that arm I've probably pulled it . But my anxiety is telling me to all my heart. It's won't stop annoying

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Hello. Good morning Saturday Mr.Heap. Just wanted to let you know I was just listening to you. Just listening to you, because I thought you might want that. Sometimes it is at least reassuring someone who doesn't have the same challenges cares enough to listen.

You really do have a tough time. I thought a long time before writing just trying to imagine your life. Then I realized maybe we do have something in common. You appear to be an intelligent man trying to figure out what is causing your anxiety, and you find a reason, each time, even if it is not the correct one.

With me, when my anxiety hits, I try to figure out a reason too, sometimes it's something in my life at the moment, but often I know that can't be a real reason. It's my anxiety, and it is what it is. I can't find a reason and so I think I try to "out run it" by filling up my day with things to do, whether I like them or not....usually means being out my home for most the day and tired when I return. lol

You, of course, can't outrun your body and the anxiety any more than I can.

I just hope today as it goes on is a bit better for you. And thank you for sharing.

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Thanks for that

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You're more than welcomed.

[Mumof347]

Hi Mrheap

I know how you feel, I tried to find reasons but sometimes there just isn't any.

Now I don't bother, like PTSDforyears said 'it is what It is' that's how I feel. If you try not to focus too much, if you can, which is hard I know, the anxiety usually subsides, depending on what you have going on in your life. You will work through in your own time xx