I have always had problems with anxiety my entire life. I was always petrified of throwing up, which cased most of the anxiety (or the anxiety caused nausea making me scared and more nauseous), however I was able to live a normal and fulfilling life. During my senior year of high school some not so great things happened which I think spiked the anxiety. After I graduated in May of 2016 things went downhill. I started to get extremely nauseous everyday, to the point where I basically would sit at home all day trying to force myself to eat or crying because of how scared I was. Anytime I would drive to far away from home I would get really sick, but the second I got home I would be fine. I ended up quitting my job because I got really nauseous and completely freaked out during work and was too embarrassed to come back. Over the summer the nausea continued and got worse. I spent my days sipping ginger ale and drawing to try to distract myself. I barely saw friends, and they would get upset with me because I would always cancel plans. I ended up making the decision to take a gap year before starting college because I knew I wasn't ready. Now It is almost summer of 2017 and I have not changed much. My parents are really helpful and tried to get me in contact with a therapist but I have trouble leaving the house, and get nervous when I know I have to go somewhere to talk (which isn't a social thing, just a "I'm too sick to talk and if I do ill puke" thing). I am on track to go the the same university I was supposed to before but I am really scared because orientation is June 7th and it lasts from 7am to 5pm. I usually feel ok in the mornings before I eat, but never for that long. I'm trying to email the school asking if I could come in for a shorter time, but so far no luck. If I don't go to this I can't go to the school, and I cannot take another gap year. I feel like I've lost all hope and don't want to keep living like this. The jealously I get from seeing all my friends do all the fun stuff I want to be doing is killing me. I feel so numb and hopeless that i'll ever get better, and honestly just hope that I won't wake up in the morning. Sorry for the long post i'm just curious if anyone is experiencing something similar. Also for those wondering I don't have any diagnosed stomach problems and my doctor couldn't find any problems with my blood or through a stomach x-ray. Thank you for taking the time to read this.