hello , i've been having this problem for a year, i had bad experiences in the past that really wounded me .. i can't seen to be able to stop feeling insecure about myself .
i have been cheated on in the past , and as you all know the feeling is horrible . the guy i am with right now is awesome , he is genuinely kind , he never did anything to make me doubt him ever. but because of my "problems" we had alot of fights in the past and all of them are the same... jealousy , doubt , believing everything he says is a lie . although every time i doubted him he would send me a picture of him and his friends to assure me and i'd feel like an idiot not trusting him. right now , i did some progress , i stopped telling me if i got upset or i didn't believe him but i still feel crappy when he goes out without me ,, or when he disappears , or when my texts arent delivered.... bad thoughts goes in my head and i don't know how to shut them up.
if i'm busy doing something , i 'd throw the ideas away but not every time i have something to do. so that's a problem.
any advices how to get rid of this permanently ?