I have a bad habit of trying to please everyone around me, the exception being myself. That sounds so conceded when I actually write it out, which I also hate. I have lived making a lot of my larger life decisions according to what other people think is right. I have finally realized it has put me in a place that I never thought I would be nor that I want to be, and it has made me incredibly unhappy. The horrible anxiety that perpetually reminds me how much I worry about every little thing is all part of being so unhappy and molding my life into what others think it should be. I think the worst part is that theres not really anything I can do now to change that. This has been a very enlightening life lesson. I will try to go forward and not care what others think. period. But I am stuck in the damage I have already done.