Scared I am only getting worse

Hey guys

I have been living with moderate to severe anxiety for 4-5months now, but now I am experiencing things such as what I beleive to be OCD compulsions. I have had obsessions, but these compulsions are out of the nowhere. I beleive what I think I would have would fall under hapemania. I have only learnt this today going through the internet.

The real question is. Why and how do I accept this if I do have it. I am so scared and just broke down. It's so strange it'll come and go aswell leaving me uncertain of its true or not. Please help if you know what I can do, my mind has just been a state of confusion. It's getting harder and harder to stay strong. Please help.