Trying to hide made things worse.

[Dodo777]

Having a breakdown in my early twenties was bad really rough because there was a macho culture and having bad nervres is a sign of weakness. I know now trying to hide the fact made me feel much much worse I treid hiding in the bottle taking all kinds of drugs which just drove me more crackers. I wasn't right in the head and my world became very dark . Today what I did still haunts me but I know I was ill I wasn't seeing the world how it is I was seeing a world that my parents gave me and that was dark cruel cold and lonely.

Take my advice drinking alcohol and drug to hide from emotional feelings will work for a tiny while and what is bothering you will come back hard and hit you off your feet.

[Agora1]

So true Dodo, trying to push one's feelings away with alcohol or drugs doesn't solve the problem but only keeps it festering. It eventually comes out like a burst dam flooding our rational thoughts. There was a time that "macho" meant that men were not able to express their true emotions. Times have changed and men are able to openly ask for the help they need. I'm sorry you were brought up to think that the world is a dark cruel lonely place. I can only hope that the advice you offer to others will be taken with sincerity. Be proud of who you have become today. After all, it is the present that counts. Take care, as always my best to you.

[Dodo777 in reply to Agora1]

My son is so needy he's asked to borrow more money to buy drugs off hhis mother. I haven't eaten or drank for a while. I am my wits end Agora . Now I have to pick up drugs drive them 40 miles and i'm paying for the pleasure. I spit my mix last night trying to get something in me and I cant even be bothered to pick it up.

[Agora1 in reply to Dodo777]

Dodo, I'm sorry to hear this. What are you surviving on? When you get back see if you can get some liquids down you. You are expending energy and not refueling. You can't take care of your son, if you don't take care of you first.

[Dodo777 in reply to Agora1]

Spilt my mix I should of said sorry.