Just to thank you for all the replies I have had on the site which I just joined 2 weeks ago. It is great to read all the postings and to know most importantly "That you are NOT alone" there are so many others out there with the same feelings and problems.
Always felt a problem shared is a problem halved so I have also joined a local support group and go to my third meeting on Tuesday. I find the group really helpful for for anyone out there if there are local support groups near you I highly recommend it. Together we can beat all these "unwelcome" feelings that hit us day after day.