I think I'll die before I beat this...

[Stay_strong85]

Every single day is a constant struggle. I just feel so overwhelmed and honestly, so hopeless. I'm getting so tired of feeling the way I feel. I'm tired of this loneliness and feeling so secluded in this world when I'm surrounded by people. There's a lot more to my story than this, but I guess that's all I really feel like saying right now. 😧

[Agora1]

Stay_strong85, That's okay, just vent. Sometimes getting deep into our feelings causes us to feel more anxious. It is very wearing to constantly struggle with anxiety, no two ways about it. It is a lonely disorder. People who don't understand leave and others like ourselves are sometimes so into their own struggles that they can't reach out. Ironically, we seem to be a large part of the population that deals with daily anxiety and yet the general public doesn't seem to care. If I've learned anything from this forum, it's that I now realize the people I see in stores that I've envy could possibly be going through the same thing. We all seem to have our own way of hiding what we are feeling. We want to look and act normal, but what is normal? Anxiety can make you forget what it was once like to come and go w/o a thought. Anxiety may not kill us but it can feel like we will forever have it and will die before getting better. Never give into that thought. Always move forward. Educate yourself, never give up and that day will come to you where you feel well again. Anxiety will always be a part of our life but it doesn't have to take over our lives. Tomorrow is a new day. Try a fresh start by doing something different.. My best.

[Stay_strong85 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. I hope tomorrow is better. I just feel so alone in this world. So miserable. I know better, but I can't pretend anymore. I am a good person, one of the most generous, selfless friendly, genuine people out there and I can't find a life. No one wants me, no one likes me, no one understands........

[Agora1 in reply to Stay_strong85]

You know what Stay_strong85? I have found that anxiety seems to take hold of the nicest people in the world. I've often wondered if it's because of this trait that we are more susceptible to being hurt, to emotional feelings, leaving us wide open for fears and anxiety to take hold of us. It's just my thought. But I've seen others who are mean, hardcore people who go through life without a care in the world and without giving a "fig" about others. So in one sense, it's the good people who go through this life sucking entity of a disorder. It does seem like no one wants us, no one likes us and no one understands. And that's why the forum. We are here for each other, hopefully to support and care.

[Stay_strong85 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much. Very true. 😶😏😟🙂

[Hidden]

me too. I feel so alone and secluded and I feel like it's my fault but I don't know if it is or not. It's hard to get through each day. I wake up and immediately wish it was night time so I can be alone and go back to sleep. it sucks. but I understand what you're going through, stay strong

[Stay_strong85 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you very much for the reply. I wish you well.

[Vbee]

It sounds like you have a but of depression thrown into the mix. Please have a look at a website by a couple if british psychologists called Uncommon Knowledge. It is so reassuring to discover that you're not alone and that what you are feeling can be alleviated. There is hope - finding purpose will also give you clarity and allow less time for inteospection and rumination and less space for those lies that anxiety and a tired mind tell us. Our worlds are coloured by anxiety and you can say stop and make your own colours.

[Stay_strong85 in reply to Vbee]

Yes very depressed as of late...I realize that, but man it is tough on me. 😧Thank you very much for your input and the reference. Be well.

[rome43]

I just said the exact same thing to a relative when i got home tonite...i said i think i am going to die before i can beat this! I started some steroids a week ago so felt a little energy so thought i would try to get out of bed and out of this house for a little while...I met a friend for a few hours when i started feeling the fatigue coming on. i had to leave my friend and on the way home the pain and heat and inflammation started setting in to the point i started crying not knowing if i could even make it home. This was my first attempt at getting out in 6 months and my body just couldnt do it! When i got home i had to take some pain med then collapsed in bed. I spend so much time in bed i sometimes feel like it is a black hole sucking me in. I do know exactly how you feel. i am tired of being sick all the time. It is so very lonely and isolating. It can be so discouraging and depressing...😥

[Stay_strong85 in reply to rome43]

Oh no, I truly hear you. I am struggling too. I can't even remember the last time I stepped outside my house. I really do hope things get better for all of us. I've just never been in this bad of a rut in my entire life so it's severely depressing. I thought I was Stronger than this but I guess I'm not. I truly do wish you well friend, thank you everyone.

[rome43 in reply to Stay_strong85]

yes i do help we all get better!!! And it can get very depressing just remember when you are feeling this way that you are not alone...I can surely relate to you. please feel free to message me anytime my friend. take care

[Stay_strong85 in reply to rome43]

Thank you very much, means a lot. 😏😶😚

[Cwoods]

How are iU feeling today ? I hope better

[Stay_strong85 in reply to Cwoods]

I am ok today, how have you been??? ☺thank you for asking.

[Cwoods in reply to Stay_strong85]

Thats great u are feeling better i am doing fine just my sinus is kicking my butt due to the weather change but i will be fine.

[Stay_strong85 in reply to Cwoods]

I hear ya i get all dried out in the winter. Had a cold for two weeks that didn't want to leave, no fever tho. Happily, well actually no it was a horrible cold lol.

[Cwoods in reply to Stay_strong85]

Lolol

[Lodgehouse1]

That ball and chain gets heavier I know. I feel the same each day, waking up and trying to struggle through until it is time to go to sleep and forget all the shite that we feel. I have a big family but like you I FEEL like so lonely and hopeless, god knows how we got like this, it isn't fair. I try not to meet up with people because they all seem happy . OF COURSE you will have a story behind the way that you feel. Don't be lonely because as much as we think nobody cares, some people do. I also think that sometimes people are happier when they know that we are down, it makes their life feel better. Hang in there kiddo!! I am sending you all my strength.x

[Stay_strong85 in reply to Lodgehouse1]

I truly appreciate ya! Good words friend, good words. Be well. 😊😚