Hi all, both my mother and farther passed 8 months ago, it was within 6 weeks of each other. My dad had dementia and it was his choice to leave this world. I understand why, dementia is not something I would wish upon anyone. My mother was an alcoholic (I hadn't seen her in 6 years!) she drunk herself to death. After I just got on with things, I didn't really mourn. I know their in a better place or at least I'd like to think it. In September I had to have keyhole surgery, to look for endometriosis. I was a little worried about surgery, but it went great & my surgeon was brilliant. I was discharged and had really bad shoulder pain for days after. After 7 days were due to fly to Croatia, the day we were leaving I called the hospital to see when to remove my bandages they told me today, so I did. Ten minutes later I got a call to say not to remove them from a worried nurse, I told them I had already done so and that I was on route to the airport. She urged me to return to hospital so I rushed there just to be told to come to the exit door where I was given more badges. She would not put them on I had to do it myself. Panic set in. I ended up having a panic attack at the airport, throwing up and ventilating! My boyfriend helped me on the plane where I continued to be sick. We arrived in Croatia and I just slept! I was worried for the rest of the holiday. And although nothing happened.... ive had anxiety ever since. My question is was it brought on through lack of grieving or surgery? & how do I get rid of it.... ?