Agoraphobia, panic disorder, depression, generalized anxiety...

[Sweetlolly11]

I feel like I'll never be able to heal because of my thoughts. I just gave myself a panic attack thinking about the future. I can no longer enjoy the present, at all - I will be having a rather peaceful rest of the year and instead of enjoying it, I'm freaking out. I am thinking about what happens next month once dad is back home, what happens next semester at school with new subjects, I'm thinking about family gatherings and going to church with everyone (family tradition) when I haven't been to either in months. I just feel trapped in hell and can't see a way out of it. I am derealized and dizzy 24/7 my mom is the only family member who knows about my problem, and my friends all know, but yet no one seems to understand at all - that doesn't help. It only belittles my condition. My dad doesn't know because last time he was told about my problems and me going into therapy all he said was to my mom and not to my face: "you spoiled her". I am unable to take time off anything, I'm running a tight schedule, no time to truly be with myself and my thoughts and sort myself out. There isn't even a possibility for me to stay at home - I am constantly pushed, by everyone, and it is NOT helping like you'd think it would, it's only tiring me out and I can feel myself sink into depression.

[miarose]

, i do know exactly how you feel, as I am the same. I am constantly off balance, afraid to go out i have hardly clothes as i cant go into a shop to buy them. no one understands as i look fine..I have sunk so low i havant even put a xmas tree up..I just dont care about anything anymore...i cried for 2 hours this evening..you are not alone,,im sorry, i cant give you any help,as i cant help myself..you can talk to me if you wish...xxxxx

[Sweetlolly11 in reply to miarose]

aww honey I'm so sorry you feel this way, I'm sending you a hug x send me a message, what's bothering you?

[miarose in reply to Sweetlolly11]

I dont know what is wrong, inside my head i want to go shopping, get back to the girl i used to be..i was outgoing, had a bubbly personality ,and looked forward to things..so i suppose i am crying cause i cant do these things anymore. my motivation is gone, i have just given up...cant fight this anxiety anymore. i dont even want to..thank you for replying, as your feeling poorly yourself...xxxx