This is one of the most difficult times in my entire life. I have my faith(it is weak, but it is there), I have hope, I have a beautiful family, I have purpose, I have so much beauty in and around me...so many blessings. Why is my body doing this to me? What am I not grasping...what information am I missing...what am I not getting...what am I holding on so tightly to, what am I refusing to see within myself? I know God is calling me close to him since my faith got broken, but when will it get better friends? I am ok, I am keeping positivity and love inside, but to be honest I am truly so sad about all this. I feel like it will never end...I know better, but it is truly exhasusting. Every single day. I gotta keep going, that's for sure, but I am so exhausted. Well, my friends, my love is with us all. Thanks for listening.