My husband died six years ago and I was diagnosed with PTT. Have been on metrazipine but had to come off because I blew up in size. Since then have tried many antidepressants but all made me feel sick so came off them althogether since when when my depression had soared.. Recently I have been crying very hard most nights and am waking up around 4.a.m. feeling very sick which wares off around lunch time. Is this anxiety and if so what do I do. I feel desperate - I need to find a way to mourn my husband without being sick and this is the only explanation I can find for my sickness - the sobbing. Please help.