Hello!! this is my first post, i'm so excited about it
-I'd like to share with u my experience with stuttering .. well i don't remember exactly when i started to stutter, it took place in my life when i was between 7 or 9yrs i think .. i was (and still) a really shy guy who avoids speaking in public, reading in class, talking to older strangers ... i feel like this really affected my life in some decisions, i'd love to talk, to express myself.. it is so hard for me that i can't give the right meaning of a sentence or even my true image..
---when i'm about to speak or to read something i kinda know the exact words that i'll stutter in them, i feel it in my chest and throat like there is something down there blocking me from getting this sounds out.. this really frustrates me and makes me feel weak and more anxious.
---i'm not a sever stutterer, it really depends on how much anxious i'm ... the more anxiety increases the more stuttering does too.. but "sometimes" when i keep talking or reading it really begins decreasing, it's like riding a bicycle for the first time but for me everytime is the first time, you begin to fall down again and again until you get used to it and master it (be stutter free)..
---i still don't understand why this happens to me, i don't remember anything for my childhood except that i was stutter free until something happened .
---some people told me it's an incurable thing, for me i don't think so, i'm not a researcher or doctor, but something inside me telling me that.. because i already felt what it's like to be stutter free.. i experienced some few public situations that i've put myself through and i didn't stutter at all ..even now i'm writing this post and speaking like if i were speaking to all of you in a public place or on a stage and i'm not stuttering, when i'm alone (at home for e.g) i speak, read, scream (i'm not crazy hhhh), act, sing, i can do everything with no block or repetition.
---i still don't understand the reason of my stuttering but what i'm sure about is that anxiety or more specific SOCIAL anxiety has a huuuge role as the producer of stuttering or the product of stuttering.
---i'm really happy i shared this with you
this my first time i speak about it, if you have any advice plz tell me
and sorry if i wrote too much !!