Hi. I have been looking for help and support for so long. I have terrible anxiety and severe depression. I have a desperate desire to be needed. My relationships with my children are falling apart because they don't need me anymore. I have a very dear friend that is trying so hard to help me because he has been here before. Help seems so far away. I have felt like this for as long as I can remember and I can't imagine being able to feel different. I don't ever ask for help and even this post is making me feel..... Well, like I'm weak. I don't like to feel weak. That's the one thing in my life that makes me angry. I've been feeling this way for a few weeks, usually I can brush it off, thrust my chin in the air and let it slide off my shoulders. This time I can't. I feel very lost.