Prior to my hormone inbalance that set off anxiety attacks.. I was, for the most part "normal". Stupid thoughts didn't bother me.. or make me anxious.
Stupid thoughts like being afraid to eat ice cream all of a sudden? Why? Why does the thought of eating ice cream that I LOVE induce an anxiety feeling within me. Then I think.. well what if I can never eat the ice cream I like so much so freely like Id id before - why does THAT make me nervous.
Or having a cup of tea (I think I'm afraid of the caffeine - as if that would create anxiety) .. Or going out to eat and having them bring me a cup of water with ice. WTH is that? It's so irrational.
Then.. I get a fear of my regular routine.. like it's boring or something and that invokes some sort of anxiety - some sense of weird urgency.
Yesterday , I was having a good day. This morning.. it's like I had to start ALL over again.. and as I was sitting at breakfast (out with the fam) Istarted thinking about being my "normal" self - and will I have that again.. and THAT made me feel anxious.
See.. I do know that now that the physical causes for the initial anxiety have passed (hormonal imbalance - should be passed by now) I know it's all , at this point.. mental. BUT.. WHAT do I do to stop the thoughts, stop the fear of anxiety .
What are the affirmations I can tell myself (and convince my brain) that I am okay.. and to bring me back to how I was BEFORE I started having these anxiety attacks.
I do feel that I"m getting better.. but not 100%