Hello, been having anxiety and depression for over 4 yrs now. I feel like this is my fault. I've been in therapy twice (1yr and 2yrs) and just recently stopped the 2nd one. My therapist told me she could only accompany me and could not do things for me, while my issue is that I can't take charge of myself; I also thought I was already doing a lot. Every time I got to the root of my problem it became too overwhelming and I don't know how to deal with it and go through the other side.
I've been told CBT doesnt get to the root of problems (mine involve family history) so I feel this is not an answer either. I'm not going back to talk therapy because I feel a bit betrayed and I feel this will be the same thing over again (=failure).
All I hear myself saying is "oh it's been that many yrs im like this", and I keep saying this every year without proper change. I'm starting to isolate more, eat and drink more as I'm starting not to see a way out.
I do really thing it comes from me and whatever I do it won't work.
What is your insight on this?