Drowning in my own thoughts..

[mz_rachel]

So right now I'm having major anxiety and panic. I feel like I'm gonna die with everything that I'm feeling. My outlook on everything has changed, like having derealization more and more. I think about my breathing every single moment and it's been like this for the past week. Maybe it could be bc I haven't been getting enough sleep or I just let me mind run all day but it's driving me up the wall! I'm taking my meds everyday or at least I try to remember or if I really need it but it's just been hard to deal with. Please tell me someone can relate....

[MattBuckland]

Hi Rachel

I have had a terrible couple of weeks as well leading to this week off work and struggling to see any future. Yesterday was as low as I have ever been and lead to suicidal thoughts. I feel like a failure most of the time.

BUT

I didn't, kill myself (good), I did get out and walk the dog ( found very hard but did it - Good) , I saw a counsellor (good) and a spoke to a friend (good).

Today I still feel really scared that I won't be able to break through this and get back to work and some sense of normality but I am going to try my best to praise myself for any positive actions today as a start.

Maybe giving yourself a chance to do something for yourself however small will give you an achievement to help break the cycle?

If you can see a counsellor then I would recommend it as when you are ill and alone with your thoughts it is not always easy to make these positive steps yourself.

From someone who is feeling very lost at the moment I really hope that you can find your way back to a safer place.

Thinking of you, Matt

[Alun001 in reply to MattBuckland]

Hi Rachel,

Great reply from Matt

All I would add is to remember that you ave survived every panic and anxiety attack. The more you you fight them, the more power you give them. Its difficult I know but if you stop fearing them and start giving power to the positives as Matt suggests, things have to change. Every thought creates a physical response - change the thought and you change the response. I wish you well. Peace!