Hello everyone, I'm a 68-year-old woman who's been dealing with anxiety of some sort most of my life. In the past several months now it's become much worse on a daily basis. I don't take medication for it because I've tried all of them in the past and I hate the way they make me feel otherwise, groggy and sluggish. The only thing I've found that helps me is to smoke marijuana, and that helps immediately, but I don't want to be dependent on it or anything else to make this better. I want to find a natural help that's also legal. I don't go to doctors any longer because, again, I've been there and done that So many times in the past and they have nothing to offer me. The main thing that's changed in my life is that in the last 2 months I've reconnected to a man I knew about a year ago and this time it seems like we might have a very good connection. It's wonderful, but since then I've been constantly anxious and scared. I believe it's because I know if this works out with him then my life will definitely change and that scares me. Anyone else experiencing anything like this? To top it off I just lost a couple of friends to cancer and that's scary. I seem to be much too aware of my mortality and have trouble not thinking about it.