Having anxiety makes me wanna quit life

[Tgirll]

I just see Everyone being able to have a life and I just survive everyday, don't know if I can handle it until whole life , I'm 23 and feeling anxious is making me not be me, I'm tired , I feel like my life was stolen at the minute I've got the news 4 years ago about a friend of mine runned over by a train, somebody sent me a picture of her , I tried to get back on my feet and pretend everything was okay but two weeks later a classmate died from lupus, and I had this idea of me being the next . Anxiety came then depression , then psychiatric meds, now I'm fucked cause I'm doing a treatment for anxiety with antidepressants to wean off my benzo addiction and I feel like life is going to be only suffering from now on, the recovery from withdrawal, shit I feel like I'll never even be a mom or be happy with the person I love.

#anxiety

#suicide

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I’m so sorry about your friend.

I’ve been feeling the same way lately. Also going through withdrawals and benzo addiction. Severe anxiety is so hard to live with and it’s exhausting. But do not give up. There is help out there. I know you feel hopeless and helpless, but you’re not. This too shall pass.

[pmspaul]

This is not easy Tgirll. But try to keep in mind that not everyone else who appears to be living life happy and normally, while we just try to survive some days, is actually living without the problems we experience. I just discovered recently that a friend of mine I've known for years, has similar anxiety issues to me and I never had a clue. I've often wondered how we can experience a lot of the same life events and he seems to sail through them while I get bogged down in anxiety and stress.

Turns out, he's just farther along than I am in learning how to manage and deal with all of it. My point being, that you should try to find some people who have been where you are now, but have been able to improve their situation and ask them if they will support and help you. My friend had a ton of great advice for me and it gave me hope to know that someone who was where I am at some point was able to find their way to a better place.

It isn't easy, but it is possible. You can do it. Just take it one step at a time. You're still very young and I know there are still good things in store for you in life, as a mom, a partner and a person.

[Sabio77]

Tgirll sorry you are going thru this difficult time. there are other ways to cope that can go along with meds and therapist. try to do a journal, it gets those thoughts onto paper and out of your system. it releases your emotions onto paper instead of keeping it inside of you. also try aroma therapy, soothing music, drinking water everytime you feel an anxiety come on and take showers. these things help me too. keep in mind that just because people look ok on the outside doesnt mean that they truly are on the inside. also, have you tried to reach out to a support group related to grief. it will help you as well. here if you wish to talk more. hugs of encouragement.

[crowningglory19]

I'm so sorry you are going thru this, and such great losses. Maybe doing something in honor of them and also writing down the good memories will help you grieve in a positive way. Also, volunteering is a great way to do something that helps others in a way that helps you too. Magnesium is great to calm your anxiety down and calm your spirit, mind and body. Ginseng is great to get rid of sticky negative thoughts that loop. Hang in there, you are a treasure and worth loving well.

[Alershot1]

Hi it is awful when everybody looks so normal and we think we are the only one that suffers. Please I can tell you everybody is not normal and yet they are because we are all normal in our own way. Life just throws things in our way and makes it tricky to cope. Remember most people are floating and you think you are sinking. A path will appear. Thinking of you. Try to float not fight your feelings. You will get there!