I notice that everyone's symptoms are different, but I'm particularly interested if you feel dizzy or faint.
I'm a 27 year old personal trainer and have eaten clean and workedout my whole life. I am being considered for the lead trainer position at my gym and guess who had to take the rest of the week off due to anxiety.. Me.
How can I go on if I feel like I'm going to just faint. It feels like low blood pressure or something, because I'll check my pulse -been doing that a lot lately- and my HR will be at 120 just from walking across the room. I have been just about bed ridden because I feel like I'm always about to pass out.
HOW, can I go on? Not bragging, but I'm brilliant and a hard worker. I've always gotten a lead role wherever I've worked, by the grace of God, but now.. I feel so small, so weak. My 80 year old grandma can do more than me when I'm having these attacks. They're about 24/7 now. I feel this way all the time for about the last 2 weeks solid.
Does anyone else feel this way? Any coping ideas? I look at myself and see a sick lion. I was always the go getter. I was always, because I work my butt off, I have nice things and I want to destroy them all because now I feel defeated. For the first time, I feel defeated. I literally am waiving my white flag.
Sorry for the depressive tone, I always want to help people and uplift, but there's a reason I'm typing this now.
When I feel better, I can look back and others can look back and see and assimilate and go, "wow, here's someone that has what I have, here's someone that was at their last straw and had nothing left, and here they are today, victorious over the death grip of anxiety."
Today, I give it all to You, God. I give it all. I have nothing left inside me. Make this sinner whole, make all these people whole. All you have to do is merely speak the word. I know heat and stress temper steel. Thank you for my struggles. In Jesus' name, amen.