I'm male age 41.
Just asking to see if anyone know's what's going on here.
I feel like my minds dying and worried there could be something else going on in there.
I've always had high stress, anxiety and social anxiety since I was in my 20's.
But April last year I woke up feeling like my mind stopped working, I couldn't even think, or do anything. it was Like my mind couldn't even process how to turn the tap water off, or even send the message to my hand what to do, I would freeze trying to find the correct message in my mind on how to do it. My mind forgot how to send messages to the body.
Year later, I still had the feeling, but got used to it, even tho it's not nice. The last 6 weeks it's got worse. i Get confused when doing things. when someone i talk to, and they tell me things, I have to ask again, as I forget what they said. Even when doing things, I forget what I'm doing, I don't remember doing that, or did I just do that I ask my self. It's like I went into a different dimension, and time stopped, and I can't recall what happened. Like going from A to C instead of going from ABCDE ETC. It's like my mind isn't in control of the present moment, like a big blur of thoughts in my head, blur blur, with no understanding of words or thoughts. it's something else is leading the way in my head, but not letting me what's really going on next. if that makes sense. My thoughts are just so strange. Like the the other day, the tire guy I been talking to changed my tires on my car, but later on he kept popping up in my mind, and my mind would keep repeating the image of that person and then decides if it's negative thought/picture, and reacts to it is a horrible fear like feeling... even when looking at someone, something, hearing something etc, my mind decides what it sees or hears, if it's negative or not. if negative, then the mind goes crazy, blured mind, fear. it's like a jumbled up puzzle in my mind, and consciously my mind can't work anything out! so stress, anxiety, confusion, huge fear kicks in. even looking at my mum today, i felt a huge fear.. i thought, my on earth did my mind decide that image was danger. it's like a have a bully in my head. i also get crazy breathing, and pains etc in my body when this happens.. i know what a panic attack feels like, but i'm not having a panic attack, this is just odd.. it seems i have a new sensation each week. there must be 100's of symptoms when it comes to anxiety. it's like i'm on a spinning wheel and can't get off. the Minds unable to process the present moment of what's happening when i'm doing things. At times in the day, it's like for a split few minutes, I could feel not as bad, but then bang a thought or just walking into the next room, going for a walk, my senses always seem to be on the alert for danger. I feel so sensitive to things, it's so easy to make me anxious and stressed.. which affects my mind and body. Even a pain in my body sets the stress and anxiety off. Then the confusion keeps it. At times the confusion kicks it, which then makes my stress and anxiety high. Then depression.. my mood is like a yo yo. Like there is a on and off switch.. the confusion and Memory part is the new symptom, which is so scary. Doctor just says oh take this medication.. tried it all, but made me worse. i feel like i'm different person from one day to the next, i scared i'm going mad frown.. So really I'm not sure what's going on, or how to get well x