Its not just you.

[Hello_rainbow]

I have recently been diagnosed with ocd. Before that I had no idea what was going on but i couldnt control my thoughts, i was panicking with constant anxiety and crying all the time. I suffer with intrusive thoughts the most, nasty thoughts about harming others and myself to the point i can't watch tv or look at knives, ropes, trains etc. I lay awake at night worrying and having anxiety attacks till 7 in the morning. As well as this i suffer from relationship ocd. Constantly worrying and questioning my relationship. I worry about whether i have illnesses and spend hours researching symptoms and convince myself i have it . Basically i have racing thoughts and can't stop my mind from the time i wake up till the time i go to bed. Its even effecting me in my sleep now with constant nightmares of people killing and raping me.

I wanted to share this post to show that its not just you if you're going through something just as terrible but it is common and it happens for many ocd sufferers. Remember tell yourself its just thoughts, its not real and trust me i know thats easier said than done.

[Poppy2015]

Hi Rainbow

Thanks for posting your story, its always good to share experiences. I'm bipolar II but there seems to be quite a lot of overlap between your symptoms and mine, having had intrusive thoughts, obsessional episodes, racing mind, anxiety, as well as all the classic bipolar stuff like depression and hypomania. I've been stable for years now as I had a great psychiatrist once who found a combination of meds that work really well for me along with lots of emotional and spiritual support from my friends and my mum.

I wish you all the best

Poppy xxx