It seems as though I am jealous of others who don't deal with anxiety. Also because I feel so bad I haven't been able to lose weight and exercise regularly. I see fit beautiful people and want to be more like them. All I can manage is to go to work and physical therapy and dr appts but have no energy for anything else. I also am envious of people who can relax. Here it's a weekend that I don't have to work and just want to relax, feel ok, and maybe have fun. Like other people 😥. I try to be content with the way I am but it's just not me and I want to be a better me!!! It's not just anxiety. It's also pain and depression. I also get very jealous when there are beautiful women on tv. Maybe my boyfriend would rather look at them than my flabby chubby self.