so today was a not to bad day but here comes the afternoon and anxiety is happening.
I feel incredible jaw pain like even when I smile it feels forced... my shoulders and neck is burning from muscle pain and now I feel some pains in my left hand like short dull stabbing pains. I never feel pain in my hands so this is quite alarming and now the thought of it is making it worse!!!
Oh how I just want to make myself numb just not to feel these overwhelming pains that I know my mind is amplifying 100000000 times more.
For years I have been dealing with this when will my mind believe its anxiety and not a heart attack or something else terrible wrong.
I know everything about anxiety my goodness I can probably wright a book about it but still I cant seem to set my mind at ease when this happens.
I also know that fear fuels anxiety so I guess I am a very good feeder of anxiety sadly I feel that way..
all around my chest and shoulders I just feel pain pain pain!
I smile at my colleagues, joke and play but deep inside me I feel like there is a war in my body
God in You I trust!!